Labyrinth of My Thoughts

Sometimes I am afraid
Of all the equations
Running through what my eyes claim to see
I have the key to the door
I have been trying to open
Yet I cannot get in
It is more like being locked
Inside of what is outside of my shelter
I feel unsafe
I feel naked
Sometimes I can break in
And walk after the locked door
But I am afraid of being lost
In winding allies and dungy rooms
And I am afraid of running short of breath
It is like my own fears suffocating me
To my own death that should be postponed
For I have yet much to live for and conquer
But somehow I keep running
Into closed doors, locked doors
I keep wanting to see
what is behind the walls
Sometimes I want to see what is outside
Yet I am on the outside
In the open where I feel vulnerable
But my strength keeps me persistent
And like a thief I struggle to break
Into my own mind
And conquer the labyrinth of my thoughts

03-11-06